Turning point

Life is nothing like a movie but you can make it as beautiful as you want, there's rainy days when life seems so hard but so what we gotta get up and dance in the rain make every moment the best moment, life has thought me more then I ever thought it would I can see the difference from the girl I used to be to the girl I have become I'm much stronger and more independent everyone is capable of doing things if they put their minds in it God has truly created good people but some people just don't seem to realize and use their strength, there's always a turning point in like whn you have to look at yourself and ask yourself what your doing with your life, life isn't all about having but creatin a better you as each day goes by there's times when I feel sad and like nobody values the things I do but I'm done thinking and feeling that way because at the end of the day I'm doing it for my own good nothing else I love my life but I wanna make it better to the point that I can be so but so proud of myself for makin it to the top & once I make it to the help others make their dreams come true .

Finding yourself

Have you ever thought that maybe finding yourself would make things better? i have been told that once you find yourself you can actually find happiness too. As i was growing up i can honestly say that i didn't find my self until i grew a bit older. When i talk about finding yourself i mean having morals and actually loving yourself just the way you are. As a teen most of my teenage life i didn't actually love myself as much as other people did. But by the years i learn that i have to always think about myself first no matter what. Pleasing people isn't right because you shouldn't always please those around you. Sometimes you just have to think about where you wanna go in life where you stand and why you are actually doing certain things. I think that most of the time when you do something or make a change you should only do it for your own good, not for everyone else around you. Because at the end of the day that one person that you have with you is yourself and nobody else. I have many things in this part of my life about finding who i really am and what I'm capable of doing. I believe in myself now and i know that im gonna go somewhere in life not because I'm smart but because i want to go somewhere in life and ima do whatever it takes to go where i deserve to be at.

As a kid

As a kid we really dont know whats really going on around us. We really don't know whats wrong or right, we think life is easy cause it looks pretty easy. But as we grow up everything we used to think changes a lot. When i was a kid, oh lord i thought my life was perfect. It actually seemed perfect to what the TV shows and movies would make you think that was called perfect. Nothing is perfect in life and as a kid i didnt know that, i thought having your parents together a house and a sister was the definition of perfect. But as i grew up i found out things that changed the way i used to look at my own family. Not everyone goes to the same stuff in life but we all do learn that life is not perfect and that the way things seemed arent always the way they actually are. We all learn this as we grow up but we all learn it in different ways. As a kid i used to think that i had it all never knew there was such thing as a struggle or anything like that. My parents always spoiled me but never tried to tell me that everything was okay to do. I honestly never thought that being an adult or a teenager would be as hard as people say. As kids we want to grow old but once we are growing up we seemed to get slapped by life, life wasnt as easy as we thought it would be but thats a part of life and we all learn from everything.

Can friendship turn to into a a relationship?

I believe that a friendship  between a girl and a guy can turn into a really nice relationship. I cant say that it will always work, but i think that if they had a really nice friendship and they understand each other things can work out between them. But if you think about it sometimes one of the other don't feel the same for each other all the time, and at times i think that can mess up the friendship. I understand that sometimes they don't feel the same way when it comes to being together as a couple,but why mess up such a good friendship cause one is feeling the other more then the other. If they are really friends i think they would get through it. I believe that going through that can show you if they actually do care for you as much as they say. That's a really hard situation and i think that it mess up friendships but i believe that it shouldn't because real friendship doesn't die just like that.But i have always wonder if is really true that they aren't really feeling each other? or is it cause they don't  want to mess up such a good friendship? i honestly will never understand what goes through some peoples heads, because to me the best thing to do is be with your best guy friend, who better then that? they understand you they know most things about you and they still care and love you, i understand that not everyone sees things this way but it doesn't hurt to try. At the end of the day if it doesn't work out they didn't stay wondering if it would and they really were best friends they still be in each others life.

Happiness?

Have you thought about what makes you happy? i have well there's a couple of things that make me happy for example music and my best friend.  Music always calms me down so i love listening to music makes me wanna scream out loud. Now my best friend well she makes me happy because she was always been there for me. Sometimes i think about our friendship and i couldn't ask for more she has always been there for me. I cant say it has been a perfect friendship but who has a perfect friendship? nobody i think that when you go through stuff with them shows you if they are worth your time or not. Now sometimes i sit down and think about how happy i am but i cant even lie im not as happy as i seen things dont seem to be good but i always end up smiling trying to get through it. i think that sometimes you should watch out for what you wish for because at the end of the day it might not be what you really wanted, what do you do when you get what you wanted but you still not happy ? nothing but be disappointed sometimes we think that there's this things that would make us happy but at the end of the day the only way you can be happy is if your happy with your self and if your happy doing what you do, sometimes we choose to  make some mistakes maybe thinking that it will lead somewhere but i don't think that happiness is to be found i think its just about you making the best of life.

Music

Music means a lot to me, might be crazy that music means so much to me but it does. Music seems to  make me feel better whenever i feel sad and it just makes me happy listening to it. Now i dont like every kind of music but i like most of it. Music seems to be the only way i can express my feelings, sometimes the songs describe just what im feeling and when i sing to the song everything thats going on seems be better after. Music relax me and sometimes i just rather be in my room listening to music away from everyone, i dont know how music makes you feel but it sure does make me feel better all the time whatever mood im in just play a song and ill be good :)

My mom :)

My mom is a person that i look up to. After all she is one of the only people i truly care about. Me and my mom have been close since i was little but things changed after i moved here, she isnt here with me anymore. I cant lie it sucks not having her here but i have learn a lot of things being on my own with my sister and my dad. My dad and my sister are so much alike and sometimes i hate being around them but i love all of them but i seem to be closer with my mom after all she is someone that has been there for me after all the stuff i have done. i love the way my mom cares and sometimes i cant even lie i feel bad because i have done things that didnt make her very happy, but oh well what can i do now? nothing but change for the better. One thing that i will always remember that my mom told me is " No matter what you do ill always be here for you thats what moms are here for to be here for you no matter what" i love my mom she seems to be such a smart person and a person that reach her dreams and one day i want to be just like her or better.