Happiness?

Have you thought about what makes you happy? i have well there's a couple of things that make me happy for example music and my best friend.  Music always calms me down so i love listening to music makes me wanna scream out loud. Now my best friend well she makes me happy because she was always been there for me. Sometimes i think about our friendship and i couldn't ask for more she has always been there for me. I cant say it has been a perfect friendship but who has a perfect friendship? nobody i think that when you go through stuff with them shows you if they are worth your time or not. Now sometimes i sit down and think about how happy i am but i cant even lie im not as happy as i seen things dont seem to be good but i always end up smiling trying to get through it. i think that sometimes you should watch out for what you wish for because at the end of the day it might not be what you really wanted, what do you do when you get what you wanted but you still not happy ? nothing but be disappointed sometimes we think that there's this things that would make us happy but at the end of the day the only way you can be happy is if your happy with your self and if your happy doing what you do, sometimes we choose to  make some mistakes maybe thinking that it will lead somewhere but i don't think that happiness is to be found i think its just about you making the best of life.

Music

Music means a lot to me, might be crazy that music means so much to me but it does. Music seems to  make me feel better whenever i feel sad and it just makes me happy listening to it. Now i dont like every kind of music but i like most of it. Music seems to be the only way i can express my feelings, sometimes the songs describe just what im feeling and when i sing to the song everything thats going on seems be better after. Music relax me and sometimes i just rather be in my room listening to music away from everyone, i dont know how music makes you feel but it sure does make me feel better all the time whatever mood im in just play a song and ill be good :)

My mom :)

My mom is a person that i look up to. After all she is one of the only people i truly care about. Me and my mom have been close since i was little but things changed after i moved here, she isnt here with me anymore. I cant lie it sucks not having her here but i have learn a lot of things being on my own with my sister and my dad. My dad and my sister are so much alike and sometimes i hate being around them but i love all of them but i seem to be closer with my mom after all she is someone that has been there for me after all the stuff i have done. i love the way my mom cares and sometimes i cant even lie i feel bad because i have done things that didnt make her very happy, but oh well what can i do now? nothing but change for the better. One thing that i will always remember that my mom told me is " No matter what you do ill always be here for you thats what moms are here for to be here for you no matter what" i love my mom she seems to be such a smart person and a person that reach her dreams and one day i want to be just like her or better.

Honesty & loyaty

Honesty & loyalty are something very important to me. I think that by being honest nothing can really go wrong cause if you lie sooner or later something bad is gonna come your way. Honesty seems to be one of the things that i care about because i don't like lies i really don't care if people hurt me with the truth as longest they are keeping it 100 with me. I rather be hurt then live in a lie, i understand everyone lies sometimes but why lie all the time about stuff that you shouldn't lie about like why lie when it comes to someone you love, why lie?! now when it comes to loyalty i think loyalty and honesty are in some kind of way the same thing cause if you are being loyal you shouldn't lie to that person that shows your loyalty. Now, now a days people aren't loyal to anyone around them. Most people don't appreciate what others have done for them and take advantage that's not being loyal to someone who has show you love when you needed it and has been there for you at your worst.

Friends?

Friends, what are friends to you? well to me friends are the people that are there for you and care for you. But as i'm growing up the meaning of friends has changed. i have learned that not everyone is your friend that there's people that truly don't care about you but act like they are your friends. In my case i keep my circle very small, i can say that i don't have many friends but the friends i have are one of a kind and i truly care about them. I never understood why people tried to act fake to the people they don't like . I think that its better to be alone then be fake because that's just not the way to go. i think that as we grow up we realize that it becomes less important to have a lot of friends and more important to have real ones.